Another weekend, another chance to relax and unwind after 5 days at work. Also it has been a week plus since I last posted an entry in my blog.
There were many things that could have been written,but alas, I just didn't have the zest to blog.
To start, I felt weak & sad the whole week. I'm sure it's not because of the sleepless nights that I had.
Sure, I would be sleepy during the day if I don't have enough sleep, but this restlessness has been caused by something deep inside my head,..&heart.
No physical ailments, just psychological i think.
Last night before I went to bed I almost cried. When browsing through some websites, friends from facebook & friendster, I sensed an emotion that I've been suppressing all this time...
TO CARE & BE CARED...
Waahh....am i becoming more mellow these days??
I guess so.
Could it be because of the ever turbulent hormones in my body? Sure I do experience the breakouts on the face, occassional mood swings (not violent though!) but I never thought I would be having this kind of emotion,*a very long sigh*
Time and time again I've reminded myself that the Almighty will always be by my side..caring for me..taking care of me..guiding me..but my human & very fragile self keeps on debating if He is truly out there..watching & caring...
But for the time being..
Let Thy will be done
Saturday, October 27, 2007
my will or His?
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
what do i make of all these evidences?
Second day at work after the raya holiday & this place is still very quiet. i've seen some people have come back to work, but then again after you're done with the yellow card, they are no where to be seen. not that it's so weird that it happened but even during a normal week it still happens,hehehe.
i've pondered on what to write about since yesterday, & i've already decided on some activities that i did during the weekend. but something happened to me on my way to work this morning & i think what i experienced this morning is a good enough story.
well, i was practically CHASED by a small lorry. DAMN that dari-kirieng(DK) driver!!! I think it started right after the jln reko traffic light, near shell petrol station. i was from kajang & i think he was from fasa 4 tambahan area. so it was behind me & was quite fast. when the DK was on the right lane, it didn't go fast enough to overtake me (i was on the left lane). so when the end of the 2 lane road was near, the DK still didn't overtake so i took the lead lah. it was always very near my car & maybe the DK thought it was fun tail-gating. oh well, i just couldn't be bothered whether the DK wants to go fast or slow!
so the really 'fun' part started when i was approaching ukm gate near the golf course. the road started from a 2 lane from the bridge and ended a single lane soon after. but in front of me was a kembara, who was going at 50 or 60...like a sunday morning drive : & suddenly the DK signalled left & quickly steered left. just as the 2 lane was starting to end he tried to swerved to my lane (the main road). i maintained my cool because I WAS ON THE RIGHT LANE!!! again, DAMN THAT DK!!! he wanted to go in between me & the kembara & how could he do that, U CAN'T OVERTAKE FROM THE LEFT !!! arghhh... again that DK was a damnation!!!
so when the DK was unable to get his ways, he started to overtake my car & the kembara in front when he was able to do that. but when approaching the ukm main gate traffic light, he queued at first on the left lane but then swerved sharply to the right lane. obviously he managed to do that because there were no other cars in front of him, just motorbikes. little did i know that it was only the beginning of his pursuit.
when the light went green, as usual i would drive straight because the right lane only goes to the right. but this damnation DK also drove straight ahead & was behind me, AGAIN!!! & not long after that i was behind a van full with people on board, so it was going quite slow. 1 thing i realized about the road at bangi lama here is that after some time you will encounter a 2 lane road that will abruptly end with a 1 lane. & so, all hell broke loose again on me.
the DK started to speed up when the 2 to 1 lane started & was trying to sandwiched itself in between my car & the van. hmm, aku dah agak dah!!! that damn DK guy has nothing better to do during the 5th day of raya except provoking other people on the road! but then the van suddenly gave a right signal & the DK had to stopped momentarily so that the van could turn to the right junction. aha!! he was caught in the web that he was trying to weave!!
being a civilized and a good citizen of Malaysia, i just gave way to him because he was actually on the right lane, overtaking me, and this time he did it CORRECTLY!! but you see, nothing in the real world ever ended happily ever after, right? he just drove slowly in front of me, which was SO OKAYY with me. but he thought this would provoked me even further. i could see his reflection from his side mirror; smiling & gleaming, like as if he has won something or has bagged a first place at some race. yeah, first prize all right...at being a MORON!!!
he was still looking behind from his side mirror, & i think he was hoping for a reaction from me. hehe, i don't do anything such as a competiton or anything else for that matter, WITH IDIOTS OR MORONS!! i slowed down, to about 50 & stayed that way for almost 10 seconds. meaning he would have gone quite far ahead of me,kan? well, i won't say my luck was with me when the ordeal ended, just that the moron had lose interest with his pursuit for my reactions.
which kind of remind me of my past ordeals on the road...the first was with a bunch of kids...second was with a pakcik...third was with a guy at sri serdang...and today with that moron...exclude the very first encounter with a couple (God bless their souls, they were kind with me ;))..and what does the 4 cases have in common? they were all DK!!! and what do i make of all these evidences???
MORONS...
IDIOTS...
RACISTS...
nooo...those words are too soft, not suitable...
JUST ASSHOLES & F**KHEADS WITH SERIOUS ATTITUDE PROBLEMS!!!
Friday, October 12, 2007
Sayonara & Happy Holidays!!!
Being one of those who does not celebrate raya, I am practically all by myself in the office today. There are a few of us left in this building & the place has turn somewhat into a pekan koboi...dusty, lonely & creepy...hehehe...it's an annual scene...
So what I did was I brought a few dvd sets (League of Extraordinary Gentlemen & 100 Days with Mr. Arrogant) and I sat infront of my laptop & watched the dvds. I went out for my morning break with a few colleagues and when I came back I continued watching the dvds before I went out for lunch. The building that I'm at now has this drop-deap silence!! But I enjoy each & every moment as this kind of feeling rarely occurs (only during raya I can get this somewhat joy!!).
My plans for the weekend?? My bro has confirmed that he will be coming over, my cousin & his friend are already at my place (since last sunday) & I expect another cousin to be coming over in the next few days. I have this craving that I've been waiting to be fulfilled for quite some time -->movie day!! Most probably I'll be going to TGV & catch up on the latest movies. What I have in mind is Resident Evil:Extinction. Hope everything will turn up fine for the next few days. Shopping complexes are also a good place to spend my time during this festive season. I wonder if there will be many city folks at those places during this holidays...
Well, today is the last day of a colleague of mine at work. She'll be leaving for Japan this weekend for a training course. She'll only be back next year, September!! So about a year away from Malaysia & this place!! Wow! Must be great. Talk about having a change of scene from the usual hustle & bustle here!!!
So that's a picture of our 'makan besar' yesterday afternoon. Being the centre of attention, most definitely she's the one in the centre of the pisture also...the kiut2 wan bah... ;-) Sort off a farewell lunch before she goes away. I must admit, I'm gonna miss her. Not only her presence, but also her ever precious 2-cents opinion,hehehe!!! No more someone with a sensible head on top of her shoulder lah after this. Haiya...I wish her all the best and I hope she will succeed in all her undertakings!!!
So, until the next time I blog, here's wishing my dear friend a sayonara and a happy holidays to everyone!!!
Cheers!!!
Friday, October 5, 2007
Drama here, drama there, drama, drama everywhere
About a week more to go before raya. And the last 5 days (including today) has been an interesting week for me. I finished reading a book. I read a few blogs. I flipped through some journals. And at the same time I spent less time doing things related to my work!! Hehehe.. I blame the virus that has been spreading like wild fire--raya mood--!!!
Though I don't celebrate the occassion, the thought of fellow colleagues going back to their respective hometown brings back my own memories of going back home for easter/gawai/xmas... *sigh* I just wish that I could go back to Kuching,NOW!!!
I miss the food. I miss the atmosphere. I miss my family. I miss home. I miss poppy.
Who's poppy??
Oh. Thats our family's newly adopted stray dog. Left behind by it's previous owner, poppy has earned the hearts of many along lorong a1-c in bdc. Hehehe...my sis adores poppy. So do I ;)
At times poppy could be err,...quite dumb. But nevertheless, it's warmth and friendliness has brought about newfound emotions in me and has changed my perceptions of canine.
Here's a pic of poppy...
Looks cute kan?? But it's actually begging for attention, & food!!!
At first glance, poppy looks like a dog with a killing machine attitude. It will bark & bark at anyone who passes by the lorong. Hebat huh?? Yerdehh!!! The moment you stick your hand out like when you want to feed it, it will stop barking & approach you like it has known you for ages!!! You are lucky if it dont jump on you!! Or even lick you on your face!! So much for the barking ala penyangak terhebat!! Hehehe...confirm lah...cannot keep to become guard dog.
P.O.P.P.Y -- entertainment purposes only!!! Hehehe...
Anyway, enough with the drama about poppy. What happened today was filled with tension, & of course drama, with a capital D!!!! My dearB shouted at the other MemB. Tensions filled the air. Exasperated breaths were exhaled. High-pitched voices were exchanged. Ermmm...was with a colleague then...were not scared or terrified... just curious...hehehe...
Nuff said, I'm expecting next week to be a little bit more dramatic than today. Cross my fingers!!! I hope my expectations will not come true!!! O tuhan..tolonglah dengar permintaan hamba mu ini....hehehe. You know when some people don't get what they desire, they tend to release their anger or frustrations on others..especially those under them!! Arghhhh!!!!
Why can't they be more symphatetic towards those under them? Why can't they be more understanding? Why can't they be more professional? Why can't this, whay can't that...haiyo!! Many many why can't la! But it will never end. I'm starting to give up on the idea that someday that someone will be more down-to-earth. :( Why la my fate is like this wann....
Drama here, drama there, drama, drama everywhere....
Monday, October 1, 2007
Goalpost & Lipstick & .... It's Over ...
I must admit that I wasn’t into the movie at first. BUT I never miss a single episode in season 1. The thing that attracted me to become an ardent fan of season 1 was actually 3R. Why, people may ask. It’s because of the cast of crew members for 3R are the same for G&L. Plus the simplicity of the story line, how easy it was for me to relate to them (storyline tak merapu-rapu & very REAL!!). The script was humble & very down to earth… *sigh*
The same can also be said about season 2. Though I wasn’t able to follow each & every episode (memory failing me at times!!hahaha!!) I tried to read the synopsis of the episodes that I’ve missed. I saw the Sept 23 episode and also last nite’s (Sept 30). I didn’t know last night was the finale and I’m glad I didn’t change the channel!
Season 2 brought up many more complex and pressing issues in our society. I guess because 3R is no longer aired (I hope they are not going to discontinue it!) G&L is another platform for the team to present and discuss many taboo topics. Things that the so-called ‘normal’ people don’t talk about. Things that just make ‘no sense’. Things that can just be swiped under the carpet. Things that ‘normal’ people don’t deal with. What I like about last night’s episode was when Ayu’s parents finally found out that Reza used to be an addict & HIV +ve, they just refused to let the 2 get married (after a case of close proximity) even though before that Ayu’s parents were adamant that they get married (to save face la kunun nya!). How funny it was that the rest of Bukan Team Biasa (BTB) used the notion that ex-addicts or HIV+ve people are not son-in-law material and said that to the parents. Next thing you know, the father forbids Reza to go near his daughter (as if Reza wants it in the first place!!) and voila! The obstacle for Reza & Putri was uplifted!! *sighhhh*
My only qualm about season 2 is that sometimes some characters were overwhelmed with lines that were not to my liking. Hey, you can’t please everyone, can you?? Anyway, I still consider myself as a big fan of the series and I can’t wait for another product by the team!!
Just a recap of last night’s finale… (the goals for the characters, for the ones that I still remember..)
Putri & Reza … keluarga impian …tercapai…5 tahun kemudian
Aina & Ricky … mengelilingi dunia … tercapai …
Shasha… lelaki idaman … tercapai … 7 tahun kemudian
Eddy & Mia … suami & ayah yang terbaik … tercapai … 5 tahun kemudian (I think!)
Mia … kindy … tercapai …
Dayang … majistret mahkamah syariah … tercapai … 10 tahun kemudian …
Atoi … penyanyi rakaman … tercapai … & ling … pengurus penyanyi rakaman … tercapai …
J … memiliki kereta sport … sedang berusaha …
Zie … this part I don’t remember …..
Ikan … berkahwin dengan Zie … tidak akan tercapai … (at this point I couldn’t control myself & I burst out laughing!!hahaha!!)
GOL & GINCU….U’RE THE BEST… EVER!!!
